Chasing Dreams
Sunday, March 21, 2021
Breaking the Shackles of Servitude
Monday, December 21, 2020
Healed and Healing
Thursday, August 6, 2020
1 Day or Day 1
Friday, June 19, 2020
The Day he Raped her
The day he raped her. He not only broke her hymen which was meant to be kept sacred as a shrine but he also broke her self made cocoon that the world is good. That the earth has more angels than devils.
For him maybe she was just another girl, just one more sin added to his already existing ones or his maiden one. Whatever it may be his first sin or second or third......but for her, it was the last time; the last she believed that mankind is good.
The transition from being an extrovert, smiling, cheerful girl to a reserved, almost dead one took just bad touch. Aah, the word "just", how inferior it makes the problems of a girl appear. It was "just" a catcall, shrug it off; it was "just" an eve-teasing; it was just a few drops of acid; it was "just" a rape FORGET IT. But what all is she supposed to forget -the night when she was being followed or the silent road she traversed or the broad daylight where people were busy buying vegetables from the Sunday flea market and he was holding her from behind pretending that she was his daughter. What is she supposed to forget the way he trapped her saying that her father was sick or the way he would steal glances in the rearview mirror of the cab she boarded. She was followed, in the subways, in the metro stations, in the malls, outside her school premises, outside food plazas, weddings. Just one wrong move and down she goes, her dreams, aspirations dwindling in oblivion and breaking her piece by piece into a weaker, fainter, version of herself.
Is she also supposed the forget how he had taught her to write and given her chocolates when she topped a painting competition and always brought gifts for her when was in town and that night when her parents were out for a wedding how he had used her, how he had made her feel like a doll-not the ones she had grown up playing with but the one who had no choice but to comply to every wish of her master? Is she also supposed to forget how her parents had reacted when she had told him that she was sexually abused by her own uncle?"Shhh! Don't tell this anyone. We can't go to the police, forget it like a bad dream. What will people think of you, and your uncle? It will be you who will be at the paying end, nobody wants to marry a rape victim".Though broken she knew how the society was. It was fine with a playboy marrying a girl but a rape victim was a big NO.
At least she had the courage to tell her parents and knew about this but what about the one who only knows that 'The earth revolves around the sun', 'Peacock is our national bird. How will she feel about herself when she hits puberty and begins to understand all of it. The tears which she had shed every night while hugging her teddy and saying in a sobbing voice" I don't.... know what .....was.That....uncle...bad......why ...he...put....hand....inside....my skirt.....that hurts....Mumma never....told this...it hurts...
The tears will be back again with a stronger form and will be like a chain pulling her back from succeeding. She will again spend nights questioning her existence, her sanity, her purity, her luck, her integrity.
Now, who is she? She is a daughter, a sister, a mother, a grandmother, a widow, a pregnant woman, new additions to this existing old ones are a female calf, a female goat because over the years we as humans have evolved and have developed a superpower to see the eyes of even a female calf or a 3-year-old child and tell that "She was wanting it".Yes, the goat's eyes were filled with lust. I could understand it by the way she swayed her perfectly arched back. Yes, the 8-month-old girl was crying loudly and wanted me to feel her, she was constantly winking at me, she even made signs calling me. And yes, did I mention she was wearing a skirt which was way above her knees and a small shirt which exposed her belly button and the black kajal in her eyes were so enticing, the way she was biting her lips; it was as if every part of her body was calling out to me, calling out to the societal stigma which would haunt her for the rest for her life.
The day he raped her-he ripped her soul apart and while he would be free-roaming in the streets, she has been crippled by that "just" rape for her entire life.
GoodBye Patriarchy
Thursday, May 28, 2020
Streaked'
Tuesday, May 5, 2020
To all those who Stereotype Engineers
Sunday, May 3, 2020
End of Patriarchy
Thursday, April 30, 2020
No Netlfix, Still Chilling
Paradise or Illusion
A letter to Facebook
Dear Facebook,
Glued to my phone screens most of the days I always felt that how could XYZ manage to have so many likes on the cover photo or how does she have so many followers. Just like English is a parameter to judge someone’s intelligence the number of followers you have judge your calibre in India. Just because I don’t have 1000 FB friends and I don’t talk to hundreds of people each day doesn’t mean I am an introvert. It’s just that I prefer making friends in real life to any random guy or girl 200 km away from me. It’s just that I am more concerned about preserving old friendships than building new ones. If I don’t have a blue tick o my account and I am not recognized under your terms and conditions doesn’t make me less lovable to the people “who really care for me”. You are responsible for estranging kids from their parents. You are the reason why the youth has become so self-conscious about their looks. We no longer discuss new TV shows or books during our lunch breaks anymore. A senior’s post with 500+ likes is what fantasizes us more these days. You have stolen our peace of mind. Even the silent nights are passed scrolling through a Holi picture of a guy living in some far-flung corner of the city or anxiously waiting for that one person to come online. Life has become monotonous. Now I hardly remember even my brother’s birthday. Gone are the days when I used to listen to my grandpa’s stories. Today I have basically shut myself inside in this cocoon.Secluded.Isolated.Desperately craving attention. Facebook you proved to be a drug worse than opium. You succeeded in transmuting the book-lover in me to a “Facebook addict”.
- Once a bookworm
Superheroes
Thanks for making our generation believe that you need a cape to be a superhero. Thanks for making us believe that without killing a dozen villains and smashing a car or two you aren’t even qualified to be a superhero. Thanks for making us fallacious that you need to be extraordinary and outshine the other 7.6 billion humans to be one.Thanks for making a feeble woman debilitate by making her feel picayune. Thanks for making the belief dawn on us that you need a costume to prove your worthiness as a superhero and a muscular body seems to top the criteria list to be one. Thanks for making us believe in the illusion that after giving your all for the people and doing acts of heroism fame awaits for you where your heroic deeds will be acknowledged by millions.
But does a cape really make that evident a difference in your role as a superhero? I see superheroes everywhere. I see them in different shapes and sizes-some young and some old. I see them in their old rags. I see them wearing formal suits and attending business meetings. I see them wearing burkhas and protesting for their rights. I see them wearing a simple sari and moulding the souls of future denizens. I see them wearing a military suit and fighting in the Siachen glacier making their country safe. I see them cooking for their families, doing all the housework and making their kids a good human. I do see a lot of them every day. I see a superhero in every individual who does their job with utmost devotion. I see a superhero in a loyal husband who loves only his wife throughout his life. I see a superhero in a woman who dedicates her entire life to the needs of her family. I see a superhero in a young boy sharing his candies with his maid’s son. I see a superhero in a young girl teaching her maid’s daughter A….B…..C….D.I see a superhero in a Hindu feeding the Muslims during a famine. I see a superhero in Sikh feeding langar to his Muslim brethren on the occasion of Gurunanak Jayanti. I see a superhero in a cricketer playing for his country with pride. I even see a superhero in a prostitute who literally sells her body to feed her family. I see a superhero in everyone who dares to break the stereotypical norms of society. YES, I INDEED SEE A SUPERHERO IN EVERY FIELD. A superhero in everyone. BECAUSE superheroes don’t need capes or costumes to prove their heroism. They need to have a pure soul as their first criteria rather than supernatural powers.
– Once a Marvel fan
A letter to Indian parents
Dear parents,
If you are one of those thousands of parents who think that bestowing all the gifts and giving whatever their kids' wishes is love. You all are thoroughly mistaken. There’s a difference between showing your love and buying all the goodies for them this is for all. Her mom used to buy her a new dress whenever she went shopping. Her dad bought her a bar of chocolate or a cake whenever he went to the store.
Pencils.Pens.Notebooks.Paint.She always got the best ones. A new brand of pen or for that matter any cool stuff was launched: her dad brought it for her the very next day. Most of her wishes were fulfilled. (most because she was just a 12-year old girl .and even she wanted her parents to bring the moon to her balcony). You all must be wondering that despite having the majority of the things of the children in the world is deprived of why did she despise her parents, why was she rebellious to them. The answer was quite simple…………..her parents never spent time with her. On one hand, when all her friends celebrated their parents’ anniversary in restaurants, planned surprise gifts for them. She was hesitant to even wish them so making even a simple card was out of her league. Her parents bought everything, gave her all the materialistic happiness. But somewhere along the lane it is the love and cares that a child years for. LOVE.CARE.AFFECTION.These emotions were far beyond her means. Life was too mean to her and chose to keep with itself these expensive gifts. Her mom was too busy in her worldly affairs to spend even a minute with her. She was happy. Oh! Wait that was just a pretence of happiness. Behind her smiling cheeks camouflaging her real self was a weeping philosopher. She loved her parents, loved them a lot. But there is a distinct line of difference between loving them and being close to them. Her mother never sat with her and asked her “Tell me beta, do you have anything to share?” and neither did her role model-her dad. She distanced herself mentally and day-by-day she was going far away from them. Every day she craved a hug from her mother. Every day she craved praise for all the laurels she used to win but evidently, life was too hard on her. This was muddling up in our heart, getting piled up and finally changed into loathing intense loathing. AND FINALLY, THEY HAD SUCCEEDED. SUCCEDED IN TRANSFORMING A JOVIAL, YOUNG GIRL INTO A REBELLIOUS TEENAGER. SOMEONE WHO LOST FAITH IN LOVE, CARE AND FAMILY ALTOGETHER.
-Once an “ideal daughter"
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